my pc's not working ....my first post from my phone.....
I don't understand what is happening to me. I am clueless.
I feel miserably sad i dont have a reason to be happy.
i feel lonely i feel like talking to someone ...hence this post.
I am miserably in love with my ex .. I want him back..he says he still loves me sometimes when he's drunk..we are very good frnds..i never asked him if he really means it when hes sober..i dnt want to loose him..but i sometimes feel i should get over it.. But i want him .... I feel trapped..i dont find a way out.
I have a frnd my childhood best frnd ...shes like a younger sister to me..i know everything about her but she doesnt ...now i dont like the idea ..it looks as if i am hiding my real self ..but theres so much i dont know how to tell her.... She'll be mad at me ... Or i dnt knw how is she going to react ...it was just that she was always busy with her own problems ..she always had her own issues..i did not wnt to burden her with mine.... i dnt know whether ill be telling her or not. I cannot decide.
I have an exam tomm...m really worried what m going to do..i cant sleep with all this shit going on in my head
I am missing my ex...i know he doesn't really care
I feel like drinking alcohol sleeping and not waking morow in the morn
I sometimes feel scared ..i might became an alcoholic
Sometimes i feel like running away from all this
I doubt even after getting all this will i be happy ? Or even running away will? i dont know.
I sometimes think i am running after tthings for no reasons. I want a migration from my college to another...for that a higher percentage...i am overstressing myself ...
I wish people loved me and care about me the way i want them to.....
But sometimes am just glad that they love me...
No matter how much i grow up ...i will always be a mummas girl. I still hug her and tell her that i love you three times a day ..
She's the best .
I wish i could care less , think less and be more forgiving and let go of things easily.. I wish i sulked less.
I sometimes dont like myself. Sometimes i really like myself. I sometimes like to act like a bitch but i genuinely believe am a nice girl.
I have a tattoo just below my nape ..it says BELIEVE..its simple its beautiful ...i love it.
I wish i did not suck at saying thank you.
I wish i could love people ...some people whom i ought to love ...inspite of all that they did to me or i think they did to me.