This birthday was really special.
I wasn't really excited. I wasn't very happy.
I even cried.
I was feeling a little lonely .. I decided to stay at home to.... but then in the morning I changed my mind.. I went to college.
As I entered the class everybody started wishing ... and the whole class sang happy birthday.. followed by innumerable hugs and kisses ..it was amazing!
since it was my birthday me and few of my friends decided to bunk a lecture..
and then suddenly we planned to go to new Delhi railway station ..and travel in airport line metro and go to dhaula kuan ... and then to shankti niketan ... yay !
so we went there...we went to this awesome Chinese food joint called QD's ...we were 5 people .. and we had like 2 plates malai kebabs (they serve indian too)..2 plates honey chilli potato ..2 plates chilli chicken ..1 fried rice ..1 Singaporey noodles ..1 tandoori momos ..2 Manchurian ..and we finished it too...all of it .. and for 15minutes we couldn't move from our chairs..after that ..we sat on the footpath for a while... teased boys..yes...although our whistles were not audible.. i got to check out and whistle at the best of the lot. :D
We got high on water the and discussed stupid shit..planned a trip to Goa .. then we searched for alcohol to sober up.. but we couldn't find it ..(its an institutional area so lounges don't serve alcohol there) then we decided to go to cannaught place ..* COCO-BERRY!* took an auto ..sang katiya karooon .. jalebi bai ...and what not. and planned to buy few embassy s and bungalows of politicians etc..we were screaming all the way ! shouting ..out of control. We apologised to the auto walle bhaiya !
There in cp, I made the guy give us extra toppings for no extra cost. :D we were acting like retards . it was soo much fun. *sigh* I told him ..its my birthday and he has to give them .. then we started shouting please please please ! and he had to agree:)
After eating yoghurt we finally decided to go back home.. oh yes. on the way back i danced at the metro station.. and in the metro as well ! It was unexpected ..random and so much fun. I never had so much fun in my life.. I never thought I could have people who would do all this for me .. to make my day special.. I was really touched.
honestly ,I never gave them so much importance.. but then .. am *short of words*
(some feelings words can't define)
This birthday I learnt a lesson :-
To became a part of someone else's life , first you have to give them space in your's , you have to give them a part of you ... it becomes theirs and only then you can connect to them .
With me it was like .. I wanted to be a part of their life but I did not want them to give them that part of me which would connect us .. I was scared to give it to them..I was scared they would hurt me.. I thought they would not value it . they would just not like it .. I was just not ready to take that chance ... but its not like that. It's me not them.
I realize that .. I want to take that chance with people without being scared.. at least I want to try.
To Friendship. I hope there exist something like that :)