NOTHING

Nothing so dear as this nothing,

nothing yet everything..

Can words define what

heart can feel ?

Those unanswered questions

they don't mean anything .

When i know i have you for now.

future seems nothing.

i fear to loose you,

but i know it is on a journey .

From being nothing to everything,

one day it it will pass into nothing.

Tears and memories is all that will

be left.

...VIDDHI ARORA

She moves about

in the thorny wilderness

she is running away

the path is long

almost never ending.

Thorns is what that passed her

Thorns are what that are laid in her way

Bruised bleeding she still runs

her voice echoes wildly

dismissed as a fit of delirium

by the flowers and the floss

the dark little nymphs

the soul of the sky ..

by soul of the era gone by

they sleep unperturbed

the truth only she tries to see

through the misty eyes

her vision is not clear

but her aims are

direction is lost

but not her determination

some say she will make it....

some say she won't

she never says a word..

only gazes at the peak

where she has to reach

but when she sees the height

the steep slopes

she gets scared

of falling , of failing

failing is not

the only scary thought

but fear of failure

scares too...

.....VIDDHI ARORA

RANDOM :)

troubled mind

who are we ?

what are we ?

me , you ..

what is all this ?

where are all meanings?

peace , truth, honesty ...

mere words .

troubled eyes.

how can we see?

whatever mind creates .

mirage of thoughts .

collage of images .

what it really is ?

can we just let ourselves get deceived ?

love , beauty , art ..

mere words.

VIDDHI ARORA

No, i don't want to be a queen..

i don't want to rule ,

all i need is a world of my own .

where ,i can go steal the ink,

write my own dreams

and carve my reality out of them.

No, i don't want a life

without shallows and miseries ,

all i need is the courage to carry on.

which never lets me put myself down

helps me to move on ,

and saves me from myself .

No, not that i don't want to live

but death has seized to scare me

all i need is someone to make me believe .

that makes me stronger

helps me survive

and tells me that there is someone loving me .

...Viddhi Arora

I LOVE MY MOM :*

believe

Believe

Dark and light

two phases of life

none of them lasts forever

they come and go

dawn full of hopes

a dreamers delight

but dusk is just a lonely sight

The last rays of sun gives way

to darkness of the night

hearts may break

dreams may shatter

in sleepless eyes

but in the end its a part of life

it goes on

be strong be careful

its a long journey , a long way

some thorns you may not see

some devils in disguise

you may not recognize

pain of your heart -always hide

for everyone has to fight their own fight

night is not the time

to find lost the lost meanings ..

for darkness lets

no one find its way easily

give someone some love

rest they suck out on their own

cold and empty

feeling in heart

and some efforts

to build yourself again

suddenly that past comes in your way

to scare ..belittle you

try and believe in yourself

try to embrace that first ray of sunlight

the ray of hope

initially it will hurt

but don't be scared

just believe

that you can stand again

don't stop ..just believe

for its just a passing phase

and sooner or later it will pass.

..VIDDHI ARORA

p.s :- my last post was my 50th post .....so YEY ! congratulate me :P

Through the broken panes she tries to see

she has reasons

and knows what it means to be free

for her thats the only way to be

dreams lead her life

some reality too

her brain and heart torn by a strife

to strike a balance for her is a drive

sometimes she thinks she should let go

but then she asks why ?

its her choice not to go with the flow

not her business to think if it gives people a blow !

DARKNESS

FOR The Thursday poets rally week 30 hosted by jingle .. !

DARKNESS

The darkness within the darkness

A darkness in which i find easier

to find myself.......

and much easier too loose

what does not belong to me -

the things i hold on to .

it helps me to set my soul free

it redefines ..

unleashes the passion with in me

it gives me strength to take-off

the MASKS i wear ,

-A thousand masks ..

for no one can see me ..

i cannot see myself....

a strange comfort i find

in the anonymity ..

a sense of security is there

and the pain,

my pain, it passes into nothingness;

a beauty blinding or an ugliness unbearable

nothing matters ...

and nothing has a new meaning ..

only what is seen is the latent truth

which was hidden deep inside the layers..

Its gateway to an understanding

to an open minded impartiality.

for its the DARK,

and no one can see no one

no one is afraid

and the DARK is not just a darkness

its a gateway to a new understanding...!

................VIDDHI ARORA

Memory of a rose ..

some more poets rally and other blogger awards ... :)

HERE

by jingle ... thank you !

MEMORY OF A ROSE

Color of the rose changes ..

Red pink yellow...

all to dried brown one day ..

some got crushed ....

some got plucked ...

some just withered away with time

a strange nothingness remains

that reminds of the beauty

it once possessed

sweet smell that dissolutes

from reality and the cruelty

befallen upon the delicate being

of how it was crushed and plucked

the unsaid , unheard pain

but nature's rule it is ..

and they are meant to be

to give happiness when needed

to dissolute when in pain

to be everything when alive

and something yet nothing

after they have died .. !

...VIDDHI ARORA

THE ENDLESS WAIT...

THE ENDLESS WAIT...

Dark wintry night

too foggy outside

still she went

to the river bank....

Every night she awaits

his return...

or just a piece of word from him....

at very same place where he left her..

with promises of his return

she waits , she waits till the midnight..

till the time her lamps burn out

till the time her hopes die..

and then she goes back

with her heart full of pain

she stays up all night

remembering the old times

sitting in an empty room

where only her

longing to feel love lurks

loved by him ...

sometimes she cries

all the time she hides

her feelings and her true desires

she smiles through her pain

she smiles through her tears

she smiles and she laughs

as if nothing's wrong

all day long

for the one's she loves

and for the one's who love her

and as the night approaches

she revives her hope and

rekindle the fire...

and gathers all her

courage and strength

to go to the bank again

and go through the same old pain

Sometimes he sends a letter

some love wrapped in it

but somehow a strange pain

she feels ...

in the words of the letter sent

not her own

but of the one she loves

she tries to find

tries to search the reasons

of this never ending pain

but the search is always futile

because he is far far away ..thousands of mile..

sometimes all she wants to do is hold him tight

take all the pain away

sometimes she feels she lacks somewhere

and she feels he completes her

and for now and forever

all she wants is his happiness....

...........VIDDHI ARORA

just not my fairytale

AWARDS BY KARAN A ,THOUSIF AND JINGLE here ...thnx guys ... !

AWARDS BY JINGLE FOR POETS RALLY~ HERE

..thnx :)

just not my fairytale

(for the poets rally)

All this while i was with you

i know you were not true

and the n we both through

because the relation we had it failed

but in my heart i knew it wasn't my fairytale

because when i was in the dark

it lost its spark

and it was the time to see

how strong it was

and came to know it was weakest of all

because it withered away with a blow of wind

and i came to know it was a mistake

it was just not my fairytale

.....VIDDHI ARORA

AS I LAY DIEING~

AWARDS BY JINGLE AND WORDWAND ... thnx alot guys ... here

(for poets rally)

AS I LAY DIEING~

As i lay dieing

Four feet under the ground..

trying to grasp a piece of breadth

My hands shivering

searching for a clue

for some lost meanings

As i lay dieing

Four feet under the ground

All i could find is darkness

see is darkness

feel is darkness

and all i could think of

is the sinful night

when i agreed to be devil's bride

he casted an evil spell

instantly with him in love i fell

Not realizing that i was just a prey

caught by his sinister sight

As i lay dieing

four feet under the ground

madly in love with him

A love so true

In my heart i knew

My fairytale it was meant to be

but i knew nothing of

his devilish desires

and without thinking

i stepped into the fire

fire big enough to

burn me whole

engulf even deepest of my desire

My dreams my final destination

were supposed to be

Not this graveyard

where i lay dieing

four feet under the ground

searching what all this

was meant to be

trying to figure out

my feelings ...

what i lost and what i gained..

but all i find is

this strange emptiness

this darkness

AS i lay dieing

four feet under the ground

...VIDDHI ARORA

so much like love.....

(for the thursaday poets rally.....)

so much like love.....

I cannot leave you

Because I don’t hold the

Best of you …..

I cannot take you

Because I don’t take the

Rest of you …….

But somewhere I know

In some parts of my heart

We are one

But somewhere am

Scared too …..

I might have

Misread your mind …

May be your not

All mine …

I peered so into everything

That was yours ……

To search you out

Who are you..

In your heart….

You seem so good

too good to be true

and I believe you ..

and this Is what

scares me the most

when I think about you

I get lost …

And I cannot sleep …

I wish you could peep

Inside my heart

But it’s an art ..

And I don’t know whether

You are skilled or not …

This feeling is strange

But so much like love it is ...

I don’t know what you feel

How you feel …..

Sometimes I wonder

Would you be there..

Till the very end???

The question lingers in my mind ..

Day and night ..

Whose answer am not able to find..!!

.......VIDDHI ARORA

Untitled ....so random

from where it comes ...

to what extent it can go ...

i don't know...

this emptiness

this vacuum

and the gloom

i try dealing

with this feeling

but it never leaves

and love bereave

i stand here alone

feeling forlorn

i try to run

i try to escape

this dark despair...

delved in the depth inside

i realize how

shallow is the world outside

it scares me ...

for i have no one besides me

to hold me when i fall

all by myself i fight this battle

of strange people

of cruelty and injustice

i fight with my fears

deep inside i fight

with my insecurities

i fight with the one's i love

i fight for my dreams

i fight for myself

often i talk about

an undefined pain ......

pain ...my pain

unexplainable

born out of my despair

and the feeling

of being unloved

of being cheated on..

of expectations forced

upon me

time goes on ..

but the pain

refuses to fade..

refuses to go away....

.............VIDDHI ARORA

MY world...

MY world...

Almost ignoring real living

i live unconscious of stimulation

to a different world belongs my dwelling

this is not my world

not my place

though it has a pretty face

but it is not dear to me as my own

which is known to some

far beyond the oceans

under the same old blue sky

where my desires are

not afraid to fly

where my young dreams breath

where the darkness of the night

transforms my warmth into intensity

and the light of morning sun

fuels my passion

where me and my loneliness resides

which gives me strength to carry on

when that deep pain inside

takes hold of me

when my emotions controls me

when even a little pin prick hurts

MY WORLD ..it's in my dreams

in my reality

in the little birds chirping

in the squirrels playing

It is all around me

it is inside of me

yet it is far away

but why people ..they cannot see

they cannot feel

the way i do

why they say it is an illusion

of my imagination and reality

it is a fusion

they question its existence

they question my existence

for it belongs to me

its a part of me ...

they say am different

they ask questions

but my answers ..

they never satisfy...

now and forever I've

sealed my lips

for now i have no explanations

for their questions

...VIDDHI ARORA

birth of a bright day

I stay awake all night ,

and admire the beautiful moonlight.

The moon, it looks like a dream ,

just above the translucent blue stream .

companion of lonely hearts,

and a handful of stars.

The vast expanse of deep core blue,

awaits the spread of sun's red and golden hue .

and then just above the horizon sun rose,

with all the new hopes ,

with all the positivity and nothing to loath...

This is my beautiful morn ,

and this is how my bright day is born.

..............VIDDHI ARORA

untitled

A warm embrace ,

A passionate kiss

something that nobody wants to miss ,

A touch so different ,

a sensation that could awake

a thousand more senses

such is the true love

so cheerful so live

to insanity it can drive

no limits no boundaries

a night of lights

so wild so free

some teasing some caressing

and then taking to bed

to make love is what he said

more about heart and soul

less to do with body and mind

and soon you find

you din't realize

when love metaphorized into lust

All the feelings all the emotions

nothing but a strange desperation

The warm embrace turns

into a cold war of bodies

you give yourself whole

expecting love and honesty

but all you get is ignorance

and fallacy

and as the sun rise you try to

find him by your side

but all you find is

emptiness and betrayal

The touch the kiss

hugging and teasing

awakens your senses

No love but a feeling

of dirt , emptiness , impurity

and the realization

that making love was just having sex

is all that flourishes

It's love .....LOVE that has

the power to make you whore ...

....VIDDHI ARORA >.

THIS IS LIFE

Deepest of deep in my heart
fighting a fight
over whats wrong and whats right
my soul is torn into two
no matter whoever wins
eternal loss is mine .....

One is the one
hopelessly in love
Dreamer of dreams
sleeps at night
and dreams in day time

Other is the one
who has seen the world
faced the harsh realities
has fought has bruised
and has been hurt

In spite of all this
other still chirps and flirts
and knows no boundaries
only the depth of feelings
and is not afraid to dream
at night sees the stars and smiles
feels the breeze and blushes

But the other is always scared
scared of the darkness
scared of the night
for it brings with itself
a strange loneliness
so cold so dry
at this time the heart
longs for warmth of love inside
but it cannot forget
how cruel is the world outside ...
because it has been hurt
not once but twice
it wants to save the other
from breaking falling
and getting hurt and destroyed.

There was a time
they both were one
It was before i opened my eyes
before i saw the world
but they are far apart
one lives in reality
in this world
the other has created its own
the distances between
me and me stirs me
creates a havoc
a turmoil of emotions
inside of me
but still it cannot forget
that this is life
it must go on
for its a journey
never waits for anyone
now my dreams are not my destination
but a bitter reality
and i know am strong enough
to deal with it
to fight with it
and move on with it ...




..............VIDDHI ARORA

untitled

words unspoken

emotions unexpressed
thoughts and ideas
Nothing is left of me
nothing will remain
unequivocally a
paraphernalia i lacked
No love ,
only the anguish i embraced
i hide my pain from my self
and reveal it only to myself
at a certain point you lost touch
with me ....
my letters to you
were the unopened envelopes
and words unread
I told you to always be my side
But somehow
i went far away from you
to a distant land
i never realized
it wasn't where i belonged
it was not my fairytale
It was just a dream
that i saw with open eyes
and you were my "reality" ........
and i went far away from you .....


.................VIDDHI ARORA

LOVE AND HATE

LOVE AND HATE

In this world there's love and hate
sometimes between love there hate
sometimes between hate there's love
some people hate to love
some people love to hate
and in all this there are people
who cannot love and cannot
hate
strange are there relations
no hate no love
yet some feelings undefined
stay somewhere in there heart
what they love they cannot share
what hate they cannot tell
because these feelings are for them to
understand themselves
in love there's we n us
in hate there's i , me n you..
and in all this muddle no time to cuddle
in a strange directions are
relation are heading
in all this turmoil of love
and hate ...
nothing but lost is love ...

.......VIDDHI ARORA

Story close to my heart

A beautiful story told

when i was 5 yrs old

but a part of it was untold
about a thing that cannot be bought or sold
something for me to understand
something for me to know myself

but now i got to know what it's

real meaning was ...
now years after
a sense of similarity dwells
between you me and our lives
now i know the reason why
the door to heaven was never found
in spite of the endless efforts of
old man ..something impossible to count
now when i see your photograph on my table
and think about the way are live are
i can imagine the old man as u
searching for the lost happiness
lost comfort of love
i can see you searching for the
same door
and the same happiness
that i see while holding me in
you r arms
telling tale of your life time
and still i can remember your pain
the pain of loosing
what you loved the most
In my heart i know
the door you were searching for
but the futile search
always ended in pain, sadness and tears
be yours ,mine or our dear ones
but all i want to say
you are always here in with me
and i believe with you by my side
i can overcome highest of tides
no matter how far you are
but you near to my heart
and always living in my memories
and my thoughts .........

................VIDDHI ARORA